Even two month ago my deepest longing was to come home.
Tuning into myself now there is a sweet .. this is where I am and this is who I am and this is home.
This body, this place, the circumstances..
Doesn’t mean it’s easy or perfect. Yet it is perfect.
To be down here in THIS reality of MY LIFE now!
I have no idea where the journey is going.. where I will be and live in two month or what I will be doing.. What I feel now is this sweet and warm , fairy Love for just being myself. Mhmmm.
Yesterday I felt a pretty strong energy to finally step out of old stuff and there was such a supportive field to clear and end old bounds..which I was guided to do for me.
When I was sitting under the stars last night I saw myself merging into the most beautiful embrace of Mother Earth..
And such a deep transmission of being seen and held in Love entered my body .. every Cell was flooded with this warmth of being home and even my bones softened.
It was like all the Pain connected to this last year was loved out of my body.
And a deep knowing filling me. A deep seeing. Through all the games that have been there. remembering and recognizing a truth in all of what happened. truth I was feeling all the time but was not able to trust fully .. because of my helplessness and existential fears..