And then you wake up and nothing is like yesterday

And then you wake up and nothing is like yesterday

And then you wake up
and nothing is like yesterday.
This Life,
this dance of the unknown.
Waves moving us into one direction, opening the heart
.. often very shy and anxious but then having no choice but letting it all in
and expanding into this wave
Finding a home in it.
And then you wake up and all is left is a dream of this last wave.
Breaking apart.
Meeting Life in pain and sorrow
Trying to hold onto it, to hold and ride the wave that is still not there anymore
-losing the connection
you and your helpless controller.
Life showing you your sweet sweet human helplessness
your longing for anything to hold onto
to escape the drowning in reality.
The black wide open.
but there is only the wide open-
and the pain of all of it
rising in you
breaking your heart
-wide open to this only moment.
letting you fall deep deep down
into the earth
bending your knees to her
giving up this wave.
Then you wake up and nothing is there
than the vastness of the unknown,
the heart in its so so fragile beat.
And you see.
You cry your tears of humility.
For the Love, for the Love.
Waking up diving then,
into the stillness of your Being.
Holding her precious heart.
No choice is there but being in it.
Life moving in its very own way.
– the helpless mind , the helpless mind –
lost in the paradoxical mystery of this only moment.
Then you wake up and you find yourself
lying on the ground.
Forehead touching the simple simple beauty
of her -as another wave of breath- not there yet but still away –
and then you wake up
and nothing is like yesterday.
Amala